about pain ..

hi, it's me again , back! i know it's been a long time ..

the past 2 days -e7l- i was in pain like hell , e7l, for 2 days i've been taking anticipitants that did nothing to the pain , sometimes , there's pain that u can do nothing about , all u can do is endure & try to take its "thawab",

that day, i was planning to go to somewhere nice , most probably cilantro to drink something nice & think about ( plan & design ) some serious matters , .. i coulnd't ! actually all i could think about then was the pain.. all i wanted was to stop this pain !

these 2 days made me think about people who have to live in pain , or continious problems / uncomfortable status like sickness, poverty , opression , or losing someone u love , or getting hurt from someone u love .. i c all of this as ' ebtela2" u r free to choose how to react to it.. either with patience .. deep thinking.. meditation .. anger .. thankfulness .. u may c it as bad luck ..or an opportunity to think what u 've done wrong , what u can fix right, who loves u , who stands beside u .. c it as a chance 4 u to know how weak u really r and how strong & surviving u can b!

yes, i couldn't think then , i didn't care about making the right decisions ..

RABBENA yeshfe kol mareed w y5affef alam kol ta3ban ya rab.