Sunday, February 26, 2012

those jeans pants

Hi, it's me again, back!

Looking at his worn out blue jeans pants..God..can’t stop thinking about him & his life..
He never listened to me..i’ve always told him to be careful and keep his clothes clean..he deserves to look tidy & clean all the time..Some things just can’t come together.. I wish he unstained that yellow stain..but he chose to help his friend painting his new house.. I wish he unscratched that scratch..he chose to help his friends in their fights against the bullies..though I told him not to..i wish he unmudded his jeans tails teaching his 5 years old son how to plant a tree.. I wish he unfaded in his jeans blue.. but he chose to spend nights sleeping in the cold damp dusty streets standing up for the dream..
How many time we went through arguments that took us nowhere.. all I wanted & all I cared about was him.. I’ve always worried about him & thought what he ‘s been doing reckless..useless .. dangerous maybe.. but I know he knew how much I loved him..eventually I knew he’s always come close ..kissing mu forehead..embracing my worries raged heard with his tender palms.. look me at the eye with his sweet eyes..& the most beautiful smile in the world telling me don’t worry babe.. I’m alright.. & everything will soon be.. how sure he was!
Every time I’d  wash his jeans ..clean it out & start all over again.. but this time..i can’t.
i wish I could undrawn his blue jeans in all these red bloody lakes..i wish I could unpierce all those bullets that perforated his body ..in his last fight for dignity ..justice ..& freedom.
May be his worn out jeans could have stayed cleaner & brighter..may be for a longer time..if he unlived his life the way he did..or lived it as someone else!!

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