hi,it's me again, back !
what about chases.. fast running through the night.. through dark moon- lighted wet crowded streets.. jumping.. danger.. falling in love with a vampire .. staying up all night..watching sun rise..war..great courageous men.. smart stunning women…glory.. violence..resistance..big fights.. serious quarrels..conflict.. or a knife on ur throat .. or a revolver at ur head?
what about some romance? red or pink flowers.. or white fresh flowers at ur door step in the morning , wild rides in the rain, flying above the clouds .. horse rides by the sea at sun rise ,Paris cafes , Cairo streets, Turkish houses, downtown, bright colors, wild dances, moves & moves ,tango , hot salsa, crazy hip hop , passion , tenderness ,…………, vengeance .. forgiveness.. sacrifices.. choices .. magic .. dreams.. fantasies .. psychos .. sickness.. death?
True love .. true friendship .. close fatherhood.. friendly motherhood..betrayal .. faithfulness..values.. beliefs..era.. past.. future..history ?
Horses, planes , guns , speed cars, big plans , secrets , childish play , crisis , peak , revenge, spells , super power, surprise ,thundering sea , cold stormy wind , fire , blood ?
At the edge of high building , high mountain , up on some fast train , or hiding under some bridge ?
U .. the super HERO.. the great fascination talent..Mr big deal.. who knows the big secret .. the smart guy who really knows too much.. who’s qualified ,who can decide fast , who does all the math in a blink .. who can act fast… who makes strategies…u r the one who saves the world? Who does it right? Who fights tyrants ? who stands up for his beliefs ? Who changes the world?...yeah change.. some change ..real change.. political..social.. emotional .. revolutionary .. spiritual.. even climatic!
Any change.. any action .. any true feelings.. anything true !
Some life …
But what about me .. left here … among some ridiculous simulation to life .. no space.. no space for anything real..just stupid themes .. modes .. all preloaded.. some preloaded life .. stereotype scenarios.. uniform boring routine.. everyday just like the other.. same things to do.. same people to meet.. same words to say.. same work to do.. the same NOTHING to live .. the same NOTHING to feel.. same tracks to follow .. same looks to put .. same reactions to act.. in REAL life..
DON’T U THINK IT’S SO BORING? & U .. IDLE & BORING AS WELL ? kinda helpless ? clueless ? lost? Undefined ? so RANDOM?
u.. chained with ur dreams..wishes..fantasies .. & illusions ..always searching for excitement , pleasure, magic, spectacular shows, success, achievement , euphoria, high euphoria.. so this is how u do it.. go to the net, open youtube .. or TV..watch movies..non stop movies.. or fly away with ur imagination .. urself..dive more & more into urself.. u & only u!
what about chases.. fast running through the night.. through dark moon- lighted wet crowded streets.. jumping.. danger.. falling in love with a vampire .. staying up all night..watching sun rise..war..great courageous men.. smart stunning women…glory.. violence..resistance..big fights.. serious quarrels..conflict.. or a knife on ur throat .. or a revolver at ur head?
what about some romance? red or pink flowers.. or white fresh flowers at ur door step in the morning , wild rides in the rain, flying above the clouds .. horse rides by the sea at sun rise ,Paris cafes , Cairo streets, Turkish houses, downtown, bright colors, wild dances, moves & moves ,tango , hot salsa, crazy hip hop , passion , tenderness ,…………, vengeance .. forgiveness.. sacrifices.. choices .. magic .. dreams.. fantasies .. psychos .. sickness.. death?
True love .. true friendship .. close fatherhood.. friendly motherhood..betrayal .. faithfulness..values.. beliefs..era.. past.. future..history ?
Horses, planes , guns , speed cars, big plans , secrets , childish play , crisis , peak , revenge, spells , super power, surprise ,thundering sea , cold stormy wind , fire , blood ?
At the edge of high building , high mountain , up on some fast train , or hiding under some bridge ?
U .. the super HERO.. the great fascination talent..Mr big deal.. who knows the big secret .. the smart guy who really knows too much.. who’s qualified ,who can decide fast , who does all the math in a blink .. who can act fast… who makes strategies…u r the one who saves the world? Who does it right? Who fights tyrants ? who stands up for his beliefs ? Who changes the world?...yeah change.. some change ..real change.. political..social.. emotional .. revolutionary .. spiritual.. even climatic!
Any change.. any action .. any true feelings.. anything true !
Some life …
But what about me .. left here … among some ridiculous simulation to life .. no space.. no space for anything real..just stupid themes .. modes .. all preloaded.. some preloaded life .. stereotype scenarios.. uniform boring routine.. everyday just like the other.. same things to do.. same people to meet.. same words to say.. same work to do.. the same NOTHING to live .. the same NOTHING to feel.. same tracks to follow .. same looks to put .. same reactions to act.. in REAL life..
DON’T U THINK IT’S SO BORING? & U .. IDLE & BORING AS WELL ? kinda helpless ? clueless ? lost? Undefined ? so RANDOM?
u.. chained with ur dreams..wishes..fantasies .. & illusions ..always searching for excitement , pleasure, magic, spectacular shows, success, achievement , euphoria, high euphoria.. so this is how u do it.. go to the net, open youtube .. or TV..watch movies..non stop movies.. or fly away with ur imagination .. urself..dive more & more into urself.. u & only u!
coz reality ain't that much fun or pleasure or exciting .. in my real world ..i'm unqualified.. or well qualified to do nothing .. i'm no hero.. actually i'm invisible.. i'm busted into too much traffic, silliness, idle people & stories & causes & events!
i'm just like having too much potential..dreams.. emotion ..that i don't know what to do..i don't know what i want.. not anymore.. & perhaps not ever!
little drama.. but it adds too much boredom & steadiness & idlism to my life..or to the way i c my life!
toooooo much unstatisfaction..always incomplete .. always unsatisfied!
is it enough ?? feeling HIGH most of the time ? feeling good? like u like urself? like u important?like u effective? like u know what u r doing? like u know what u want? like u know who u r & what u've got? like playing the game right? like u r GOOD?
is it enough ?? feeling HIGH most of the time ? feeling good? like u like urself? like u important?like u effective? like u know what u r doing? like u know what u want? like u know who u r & what u've got? like playing the game right? like u r GOOD?
like having good company.. like being in the right time..right place .. like finding LOVE .. ur soulmate? like knowing what u r living for?
may b this little DRAMA ..is the antisipant till i find my real life.. it's my sweet DRUG!till i make my own movie ..where i'm the hero .. i'm the values.. i'm the belief ..
GUIDE ME NOW OR DRUG ME FOREVER!
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