she loves him more how could have this happened!!!

hi, it's me again, back!!

for so many times in my life.. i always used to end up with

" how could this happen..how could i let it..when all this happened..where were i ?!!!"

but this time.. i can't imagine we came this far ..she.. she..

she loves him more than me!!!!!!! me her husband !!

yes she does.

i confronted her, i told her : u spend time with him more than u do with me.. u give him tenderness more than u do with me.. u cook for him & u let me get junk food delivered!!

i see u have fun with him more than me.. don't i seem funny to u anymore!!

you love him more than me!!

calm.. swinging on the arm chair i bought her .. exhaling her cigarette at me.. she looked me in the eyes ..daring , she answered;

he runs at me when he sees me coming .. runs to me with a "welcoming lust ".. do u ?

he's always true.. honesty is his dominant instinct, want me tell u how many times u lied to me?

he wanders around all night to make sure i'm ok.. he protects me.. he can give his life away fighting for me..can u ?

he's my companion..we walk together.. water the grass together.. go shopping together.. he's my friend.. do u feel u r my friend any more? when was the last time we went for a walk together?

u r always busy.. always busted in ur work.. always exhausted & out of mood..u forget urself & forgot me Mr the big busy guy.

he doesn't forget me when time goes by & days pass without seeing him.. he doesn't love me less if i leave him.. he gives first, he's not obsessed with what i give him back.. what about u ?

he likes all my gifts.. he appreciates everything i give to him.. do u ? he's not demanding.. he cares about me .. he's always there for me.. i love the way he looks at me.. besides he smart.

why do u put urself in a comparison with him..laughing she said "r u jealous ..u know i can love u both"

i looked at her.. couldn't believe what i'm hearing.. feeling stabbed at the heart. i moved away.

i can't believe she loves this dog more than me.. it's my fault..i'm the one who brought him in the house.

tomorrow i'm gonna put an ad. & sell this stupid pit-bull dog.