sober?

Hi, it’s me again, back !

Sober.. is that what we call after waking up from hard drinking or a “high” head ?!

By the way, I can’t imagine, & actually refuse any reason for willingly choosing to waste a moment of life out of “conscious” by alcohol or drugs .. the “consciousness” that ALLAH (God) granted us.. through our ACTIVE senses, heart & mind.

I was just thinking, about the concept of being “sober”..

I’m just wondering, why can’t I study or work without music in the background? Why do I love stories & novels that much? Why can’t I live without watching good movies ? why can’t I live without new ideas ? why am i so –enjoyably- into fiction ? & dreams ?

 Why do I always look away at skies or ceilings & travel far away with my imagination?

The question is , WHY DO I NEED THAT ?

I thought a lot about the answer , & found that may be I’m running away from being “sober” & totally conscious & aware of all the details & times of my the life I’m living.. maybe I see my life ( or some times of it ) not really exciting enough to live “sober”.. or a little depressing .. cause naturally not every moment of life is “peak” enough to excite my mind or supply my soul with joy ..  * so my dear mind chooses to escape to a more exciting or interesting space ( created my music, fiction, movies, thoughts, books, continuous motion , & keeping myself busy with activities & things to do ) in the safe margins of being “sober” ! ;-)

“Sober”.

 How about that moment u feel u woke up .. woke up from some illusion .. from an idea or belief u’ve been caged inside for years .. that moment when u “REALIZE” .. realize that u were wrong.. that moment u tell yourself  “ how could have this happened.. where were I ?! “ that moment of transition from what u thought was “TRUE” or “RIGHT” to what u think is “TRUE” or “RIGHT” !

The moment u look out at a relationship with the wrong person, misconception of thoughts or people or situations .. ideologies, choices, misuse of your time or energy ………..

Strange thing,. That every time we pass from one level to another of realizing facts or truly knowing our emotions, or transit to a clearer vision or conception we feel..

We find ourselves getting “sober”.

Too many levels of sobriety we have to pass through the journey of life till we reach that one moment we wake up from that MULTI-LEVEL DREAM we call life!

Till we reach some solemn moment of total “real” sobriety after the journey ends.

*RELATED : I want a life http://e7l.blogspot.com/2011/11/blog-post_19.html